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A Blessed Ostara To You All

Posted in Easter, Faith, God and Goddess Worship, Holliday, home, Life, Ostara, Religion, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on March 22, 2011 by Luna Noir The Witches Cupboard

I celebrated Ostara yesterday and it was quite nice. special prayers and a ritual bath were done. Some people may need a heads up on what is Ostara well here it is. Ostara is a  celebration  of the Vernal Equinox, and is one of the 8 witches’ sabbats. The days on which it is celebrated on runs between 21st March in the Northern Hemisphere, but falling anywhere between the 20th and 23rd, it is also known as Alban Eilir (meaning the light of spring) This is the second festival of the natural year.

Origins of Ostara

The festival of Ostara originates from the Germanic countries. Early Western European people called the festival Eostre, the word “Easter” is derived from this term. Eostre was the Saxon version of the term for the Germanic goddess Ostara. Eostre’s feast day was the first full moon following the Spring Equinox, almost identical to the placing of Easter each year.

Early Pagans celebrated the coming of the new planting season in the Germanic countries. Seed corn and barley would have been planted by hand, with special ears of corn saved to create the corn dolly or kern king, symbol of the sun god (straw man, or doll), who is sacrificed at the coming harvest.

In my family we still celebrate Easter Sunday. It makes it easier for my Catholic family to come a celebrate with us on one day that we can all stand on common ground on. I use Ostara as a time to mentally reflect on the trials and tribulations I have endured during the winter season. So this time become more personal and Spiritual based. Easter is still a spiritual time for me however during Easter I tend to drape myself in the spirit of feeling free from all of the burdens of my life and I celebrate my inner self and the freedom of new beginnings.

In both I use decorated eggs and prayer. I look forward to the new buds growing and I seriously begin to plan my garden. I have already started some  plants indoors and I will use Feng Shui to assist in placement of my new surroundings in this new home.  (as my flower beds begin I will share pic).

So be blessed and feel the new possibilities that are sprouting up around us now.

Here is a Poem that I loved growing up as a child.

The poem A Prayer in Spring

Oh, give us pleasure in the flowers today;
And give us not to think so far away
As the uncertain harvest; keep us here
All simply in the springing of the year.

Oh, gives us pleasure in the orchard white,
Like nothing else by day, like ghosts by night;
And make us happy in the happy bees,
The swarm dilating round the perfect trees.

And make us happing in the darting bird
Tha suddenly above the bees is heard,
The meteor that thrusts in with needle bill,
And off a blossom in mid-air stands still.

For this is love and nothing else is love,
The which it is reversed for God above
To sanctify to what far ends He will,
But which it only needs that wee fulfill.

By: Robert Frost

Blessed Be Your Spring

Luna Noir

Breathing easier

Posted in Faith, God and Goddess Worship, Life, Life, Love, New Age, Religion, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on March 13, 2011 by Luna Noir The Witches Cupboard

Since last I wrote I have begun to breath easier. I went to the OB’s office and had a check up. Everything looks good they said. There is no reason why I can’t get pregnant again the doctor told my husband and I.

However they would like us to wait until the fall to start trying. Well I’ll leave the planning to God/dess to tell me when the right time is.

The doctor was able to tell me what had happend with my baby. Basically she had a chromosome count of 96 which we are supposed to have 46 (i think that’s correct). So I was told that it wasn’t anything that I did or could have  done to keep my baby. Since now I know that the baby was a girl. I can now give her a name other than Blueberry I introduce you to my daughter Elizabeth. I feel a bit better to know that there was a reason for the loss. I don’t think that I could have been able to live with out a reason. When you can see that you weren’t the cause of the loss you still hurt but at least you stop blaming yourself every time you think of the baby.

I finally was able to post the last podcast which correlates to my last post. I thought that I could get through it without crying but that was to much to ask. I didn’t really edit the show because it was very hard to again relive the entire experience. The  reason why I wrote and told of my story was because I wanted to help others and also to help myself by getting some of the hurt energy and feelings out. Also if I got a few of you to pray for me and others like me then I think having to tell the story was worth it.

So now I can tell you that I have done quite of bit of healing. Not complet but using our faith I have been able to cry and get strength from the Goddess. knowing that she could feel my pain as a woman and from God knowing that he is there for me as my father.

Some of what I have been doing is listening to tranquil music. Using incense to induce relaxation. Not fighting the feelings to cry but letting it out as they come. Talking to people who love me (which makes me cry some of the time). Plus looking forward to the future has been HUGE for me. I would like too have another baby but I’m ok with waiting till God and Goddess thinks it’s the best time for me.  I’m 37 so time is an issue but at the same time if I don’t have another, I will be ok. I have two wonderful kids that are healthy and that’s all i can ask for.

***TMI= A friend of mine who also had a miscarriage asked me if I was having sex yet, and at first I wasn’t sure if I was going to answer her, but I flet like I knew that she must have had a reason for asking. So I did tell her that yes I was and that I had waited the allotted time the doctor recommended. She had her miscarriage a long time ago. About a year and she still felt awkward when she was with her husband. She said she felt like she was not supposed to feel that kind of happiness when she was still grieving for the loss of her baby. She still wants to have a child badly but she says she doesn’t want to stop thinking about the baby she lost… I only told her that she didn’t have to feel like she was abandoning her memory to her baby by moving forward with her life. Plus i also let her know that having relations with your husband is a good thing. That having that intimacy is also a bonding for the both of you that can only strengthen your relationship. Not to mention, I ask her if she had  thought about how her husband felt about how their sex life was going… She apparently had a conversation with him about it and come to find out that he began to feel as if he was somehow being blamed for what happened with the baby, or that she thought that he blamed her for the loss (neither was the case). Since she was closing herself off to him he felt life their relationship was at an end. Glad we had that talk.

My husband was quick to let me know that although he was devastated that Blueberry was gone, he didn’t want me to think that I was to blame and he also wanted me to know that we will be having another baby.. That made me feel good to know that he still wanted me. So the lovings have commenced and it has made us closer to have gone through such a horrific situation and are still able to  share a wonderful moment of love together.

Blessed be

Luna Noir