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Wavering Faith

Posted in child, children, Faith, home, job, unborn, Uncategorized, Wavering with tags , , , , , , , , , on January 11, 2011 by Luna Noir The Witches Cupboard

Begging for God to catch me and my  family before we hit the ground.


I didn’t even check to see what the last thing was that I posted. I have just been trying to keep hope alive. May sound corny but life has taken such a turn for the worse in my life these past two years. No job for me, no insurance, no unemployment, and now I am about to be evicted from my house  in about 18 days. My husband had found a job but only for 6 weeks and now even with the money he is bringing in we have saved everything and we still have no place to go since we can’t afford anything. Credit is down the crapper and now i have to find out what to do with my pets. When times were good I thought that I would be able to afford to take care of 3 cats that I adopted from a shelter. I feel like such a failure. I have been trying to keep up the faith, and I have been, the time is getting way to close for comfort.

I have so much that is on my mind i can’t keep my thoughts straight ( can you tell by my rambling writing)? I have two children who are the best, who didn’t complain when they only got 1 gift for Christmas each. They looked at me and smiled over their gifts. not a complaint from their lips. As a matter of fact they thought of their friends who only received a pack of socks for CHristmas and how they wanted to save up their money to get them a ps3 so that at least they can share their video games with them. They said we can rent out our games to them for free. Every weekend switching the games for them. (did i mention i have the best kids on earth)?

I think i mentioned that I was with child. Great news since I know that I will have yet another child who will brighten my day… I am just a bit frustrated that I have yet to get any prenatal care. I called to get on Medicaid but was told that I have to contact a woman from Plan First (which does not provide prenatal care) so I have left messages for this woman since DHS office told me to call her and that was in December. She was on vacation and was to return on January 4th but she still hasn’t called me… DHS won’t help and every place that I have tried to get help from won’t touch me with out insurance. So I am almost 3 months along and I have no clue when I wil have care for my baby. I am trying to not cry and stress for the babys sake but it is getting harder by the minute.

I am just waiting for God to answer the many prayers that I and my kids and hubby have sent…

I could use a small miracle or an end to my misery. I just want to have a safe place to live and food on the table and healthcare for my kids and my unborn child. I could use some help.

Blessing to everyone